July 23, 2008
.religion killed me… Jesus gave me life.
So there probably is a pithy cool way of starting this story.
However I won’t.
I grew up in Christianity that was legalistic. There were a certain set of rules that were supposed to be followed. When I started college I went to a public college, were I was a part of Young Life and attend some campus ministries events and was a part of the college group at church. I was a even part of a Bible study that some friends and I started. It was during that time that I thought if I read enough and prayed enough Jesus would love me. I even timed my prayers, at night I made sure that I at least prayed for 15 minutes. Somehow I thought that this would save me or fulfill me. If I had enough verses memorized, knew enough theology, did enough church stuff, if I had the right morals then somehow I would be a better person.
Then I moved on to the emergent style of Christianity. This happened after I started to go to Cornerstone. It was a movement that was seemed freeing. I attended a emergent church in Grand Rapids for a while thinking wow this is a place where I can be free from religion. The problem is that it was freeing, in fact it was just another religion. It is amazing looking back on it how the children of legalism just created another religion where there were rules to follow. In order to be a good Christian you had to be concerned about social justice. If you aren’t green, feeding the poor. if you aren’t politically liberal, if you aren’t overly tolerant, if you don’t say this is absolute truth then you are a good Christian.
The problem is that these both are religions, they both are moralistic. They killed me, they had a set of rules that I had to follow to measure up.
Then through a series of events the I experienced the grace of Jesus, the healing of Jesus, the power of Jesus. Jesus gave me life, I now can live free from the bounds of religion and live to glorify Him alone. The ironic thing is that I now am free to do the things that used to bind me. I am free to read the Bible, to pray, to be concerned about justice, it is just that now I don’t have to do these things to please God. I get to do them because Jesus has set me free to do them. I can find joy in them because I can do them to glorify Jesus.
Now I get to tell others about Jesus and about the freedom and life that is found in Him alone. So that is where I have been, I hope that you see the Jesus alone in my story.